Twisting and falling

I'm at a crossroads with a decision. Sometimes you really can't go back even if you try your hardest. You have to go forward and keep looking forward while remembering the past. 

But I'm not sure my next step. If I should just bide my time. Keep treading water in a sense. Or take a leap of faith.

Who knows

I miss

I'm focused on being healthy. Eating heathy and exercising. I eat a clean diet. A bit of paleo but not totally. 

I work out 4 days a week for over an hour for 11 weeks. I count every calorie. I've only lost 12 lbs. Part of me is like that's great. Works out to be little over a pound a week.

Slow weight loss is the best. But when I look in the mirror I don't see a big enough change. 

There are many days I say no to treats. If cake is brought in I don't eat it. No to cookies or candy. Abs are made in the kitchen. 80% is diet 20% is exercise.

So I don't stop because one day I'll be where I want to. Don't get me wrong I do have the occasional treat. But I'm going to focus on healthy treats. 

Do you want to know what I've doing to lose weight? 

What if you made a big mistake?

I constantly question if moving from Maui was the right choice. I know we had to move for personal reasons.

I miss the weather. 

Easy walks to the beach.

An easy go lifestyle 

I'm trying to love where I live currently. I'm trying to love every day of my job.

Every night I pray. One goal is reflecting on the good and truly appreciating my life. 

When work days get to me - my goal is to just breathe. Close my eyes and just focus on the present and be thankful. I can only do one thing at a time and there is no sense in getting stressed about anything.

Another goal is making myself do things on my days off. Live life. 

On to appreciating the now

Boating

I love being on the water!

I need a change. I keep praying. I hope your doing well.